Jealousy is the ugliest trait

Well, another day, another moment. School, school, school, maybe a boy, school. That's all I think about but today I realized I can be very shallow. I promised myself that I wouldn't judge anybody since I would never want to be judged myself. But today, I broke my rule.

There was once a boy who I thought was pretty awesome and I found out who he liked. Right then, I started to judge her. It was the wrong thing to do, she must be pretty amazing for him to like her. I realized something too. She might be the coolest person in the world and just because this guy likes her doesn't mean I should hate her. She didn't do anything. I never hate people and just because of a stupid boy, I start hating her. It was just the inner emotion called jealousy acting up. So, tomorrow I'm going to go and introduce myself. Even though that's like my biggest fear ever. Talking to people especially her might turn into me having a melt down, but maybe then I will be able to realize that I can do something I thought I would never be able to do.

Everyone deserves a friend. I'm just one step closer to becoming me. Probably one million and one to go.

Striving to become me

This week I've decided to rethink my life. I want to help others since no one, and I mean no one, deserves to be put down.

Some of you may know, I want to be a therapist when I grow up but to be a therapist, I have to be able to help others but first, I need to save myself. The way I'm going to do that is by helping others because the best way to help yourself is to help others.

This week has been a week of learning but more importantly my eyes have been opened to a whole new world. This summer my brother decided to stay at my Mom's and that was really saddening to me. I also lost one of my best friends because of a stupid fight. I was so down in my life that I didn't open my eyes and see that everyone in the world is mourning something.

Yesterday, I was just cleaning my room and I was talking to my little sister. She was telling me about her little crush, his name is Kale by the way, and out of the blue she said, "Sissy, when I grow up I want to be just like you."

And right then, I knew I had to change. I was going to be the person I wanted my little sister to be. This blog is going to be about me striving to be come a better version of me but more importantly, helping others back to our Heavenly Father.

No matter who are you. You're special and no matter what, I'm gonna make sure you realize that.